Friday, February 13, 2009
i'm absolutely loving the colour of my nails now!! it's so pretty! it's a perfect colour of love! of cos speaking of which, v-day is just ard the corner (tmr) and i'll be heading to bishan park to sweat it out with people whom i've come to enjoy their company. ^_^ excited.
lately i've been so bogged down by work, that i've become a seriously angry/repressed person. which is not good. even monster has commented that i'm not as cheerful as i was before the companies merged. why? perhaps that's the very reason. when an entity grows bigger; situations would present themselves and it can either make you smile or piss you off.
increasingly, the disappointment with the way things are in the company, the people in the company really have been bogging me down. and i don't want to feel like that anymore. i want to go back to the days where i go to work happy, get off work even happier. i wanna go into office with a smile on my face. i don't want people to keep asking me if i'm ok, why is my face so black. i want to retrieve the joy that i feel when i'm working; even doing something so mundane as updating ceritificates. i wanna be happily busy so i don't have to resort to blogging or wedding-blogs-surfing to make me smile. i don't want to complain on my blog about work. i want to write happy things! i want my goddamn sunshine days.
unfortunately, these seem to be far away in the horizon. i often wonder when it will improve. because from the looks of things, it's been steadily and continuously going downhill. i don't want to bring home my anger. i don't want to be pissed off half the time that i'm spewing vulgarities while talking to my mom (not at her!!! of cos not! but when i'm talking about the office). more importantly, i want things to improve for the old man. i won't mind being a bit more unhappy if things can improve for him. he really deserves a break. not the consistent shit that's being thrown at him. and i think one reason why i'm constantly vexed by work, is because of him. because, unlike what people think, it's not easy working with a relative. immediate or not. i'm not saying i don't like working with him. but it gets so darn frustrating and upsetting (monster/twin - u know what i mean).
what's the point of a reward system when you're penalising instead of rewarding. it's just for show. nothing more. on a sidenote, it doesn't get easier having to say NO. really. sigh. i dunno how some others can do it all the time. without feeling anything.
i'm excited... something exciting (for the lack of a better word) is coming up within the next few weeks. so i'm looking forward to that. and i know the result is going to be awesome. ^_^ because i trust in the awesomeness of this person. *winks*
time to pick up them clubs and books soon... wheee!! woots!
sidesidenote: i'm totally hooked onto the hk serial - 家好月圆! it's not only an exciting drama to watch, it's most definitely helping my canto.
lately i've been so bogged down by work, that i've become a seriously angry/repressed person. which is not good. even monster has commented that i'm not as cheerful as i was before the companies merged. why? perhaps that's the very reason. when an entity grows bigger; situations would present themselves and it can either make you smile or piss you off.
increasingly, the disappointment with the way things are in the company, the people in the company really have been bogging me down. and i don't want to feel like that anymore. i want to go back to the days where i go to work happy, get off work even happier. i wanna go into office with a smile on my face. i don't want people to keep asking me if i'm ok, why is my face so black. i want to retrieve the joy that i feel when i'm working; even doing something so mundane as updating ceritificates. i wanna be happily busy so i don't have to resort to blogging or wedding-blogs-surfing to make me smile. i don't want to complain on my blog about work. i want to write happy things! i want my goddamn sunshine days.
unfortunately, these seem to be far away in the horizon. i often wonder when it will improve. because from the looks of things, it's been steadily and continuously going downhill. i don't want to bring home my anger. i don't want to be pissed off half the time that i'm spewing vulgarities while talking to my mom (not at her!!! of cos not! but when i'm talking about the office). more importantly, i want things to improve for the old man. i won't mind being a bit more unhappy if things can improve for him. he really deserves a break. not the consistent shit that's being thrown at him. and i think one reason why i'm constantly vexed by work, is because of him. because, unlike what people think, it's not easy working with a relative. immediate or not. i'm not saying i don't like working with him. but it gets so darn frustrating and upsetting (monster/twin - u know what i mean).
what's the point of a reward system when you're penalising instead of rewarding. it's just for show. nothing more. on a sidenote, it doesn't get easier having to say NO. really. sigh. i dunno how some others can do it all the time. without feeling anything.
i'm excited... something exciting (for the lack of a better word) is coming up within the next few weeks. so i'm looking forward to that. and i know the result is going to be awesome. ^_^ because i trust in the awesomeness of this person. *winks*
time to pick up them clubs and books soon... wheee!! woots!
sidesidenote: i'm totally hooked onto the hk serial - 家好月圆! it's not only an exciting drama to watch, it's most definitely helping my canto.
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